Memories

I turn 36 today. I didn't think what I wrote last year would come into effect so fast. Life is really short. Amma isn't here anymore. It felt like someone pressed a button somewhere and everything was over. I miss her but I am also very proud and happy when I look at the way she lead her life. This incident alone taught me things this year...

Death is mostly unexpected. Not that I thought we will live forever. But the fact that it can happen anytime, anywhere, unexpected was a shocker. We all know friends who have lost their parents or siblings suddenly. But until it happens to you, you wouldn't realise how shocking and confusing it is, at least I didn't. Everything seems petty in front of it.

Can we be prepared? I don't think one can prepare for death of loved ones but can certainly be prepared for one's own. Death is mostly about people left behind and not about the person who is dead. Specially for someone who doesn't believe in after life or rebirth, there is only memories and sadness after it. So build good memories, take insurance, be just and don't forget to have fun.

Sadness is inevitable. Nothing can stop it, not even time. I learnt to cope with it. I also learnt sadness is just like happiness. It comes and goes. It can happen anywhere, anytime and for no special reason.

Enjoy the moment.